Laughing Girl

 (Gorgoeus gal! it feels so good to say that. And that's how everyone should feel when giving others compliments or viewing another who you feel has a positive outlook or form. For some reason it brings me back to a time when a little one tried to compete with me...what she failed to realize was that I could have been old enough to be her momma.  First step in her approach, osterize me, though we were all learning chemistry and needed the help. Her second approach, and I quickly realize that she couldn't help it. Laugh at my every move especially when someone else gave me a compliment. And then I sat in a seat and realized she' was in the seat behind me or did she go there after I was sitting, so I moved across the room and by then somehow figured out she had a chance to grow up---guess who ends up sitting behind me for the rest of the class and guess who I always hear laughing with her friend, interrupting the entire class. By then I figured, it wasn't about me and the laughter though annoying, had faded out with my focus on class.  But guess what - it was all about me. They kept laughing at my every move.  CALLED OUT.  One day a friend of mine sat with them and saw they were laughing at me and that they were also talking about me in their group (that extended beyond the two). She says, I hope you guys know that you missed out. This girl has a lot to offer: and furthermore, she knows that you laugh at her. Sadly, the laughing girl was so focused on my person, that her laughing would interrupt the whole class as her friend joined in.  What more can one say about this story.  I was so into passing --uplifting myself and earnig a degree that the laughing girls got way out of my focus, while I stayed as a focus during their class time --but it would have been great to have a team to work with.  Her friend who laughed with her and was much older, sadly (in this situattion) a follower who didn't even realize the reason behind the laughing girl's laughter. And my friend, she saved the day and put them both in their place by calling them out.  You see, I at first told her that the girl use to laugh at me, I just didn't know that I was the reason why the laughing girl and friend continued..  And what did it do by my friend telling me?  --Hey, you know the old saying, "know who your enemies are" and I also say we grow by kowing the truth.
 
I liked the follower and without knowing that my friend confronted her, told her on the last day of school how I had been extremely sick and came out of the hospital, only to jump right into class and that me being in class was a complete miracle ride! How amazing and a gift of God to jump right back into chemistry class of all things!!!! I told her how I was riding on great fear cause this class determined wether or not I earned a degree! Then I had wished her well and thanked her for her kindness from when she assisted at the beginning of class. Now-- all this was said without knowing that I was a continued focus of laughter, I even texted her after we got the results of our final to let her know that I earned my degree. Yes folks, my whole existance was defined by that one class!  It was only after this last text when my friend had told me about her confrontation with the two laughing ladies. Otherwise, I was (oblivious) For the second laugh lady, I hope her consciousness eats at her and offers her growth.  Well, I hope the confrontation offers both ladies some well needed spiritual growth.

Sometimes words are so important, like the words of my friend in defending me.  If we can't use our words nor our vocals to lift others up, we should just try our best to not put them down or simply zip it up. If we feel a need to tear down another, then we need to take some serious time out to have that much needed conversation with ourself.  What's so sad about the young lady who laughed at me, it was always easy for me to give her a compliments. She had lovely hair and a precious smile.  The sad thing is if the presence of another presents to her insecurity that is coupled with negative actions, she will never see her own beauty nor her own worth. She will eat at her own beauty because beauty runs deep. 

True beauty can not be found on the surface. It doesn't matter how much you do your hair or act kindly to just some people. My friends, true beauty is much bigger than that.  It is beneath the dermal, it surpasses skin deep.  You see, their crew ended up working with each other and didn't venture out to include me.  They had both lab and lecture, while I only had lecture; therefore, I actually could have assisted with any challenging problem in their lecture class since I took the class before and had obtained an A.  When I first realized that I was ostercised, I felt a little bad and it was odd, but I eventually understood the seed/s of the situation and the fact that they had two classes together.  However, I had too much work to do to keep it as a focus. My focus was on the goal of graduating and that indeed I did!  One month fighting for my life as I knew it--the next taking a challenging class that totally determenined my future--So I was walking on a tight rope while dealing with every anxious bone in my body, But guess what? This summer I earned that degree! It was a science degree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And so their laughter became my joy. ;-)

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